Anyway, I thought maybe if having someone flirt a little bit might make me feel a little better. No, it did not. I had boys send a flirt. That is what they do, they send flirts. I thought that might be fun. No, having boys in their 30s and 40s sending me a "Thought you could use a flirt" What does that mean? Am I such an old pathetic looking woman, that they guys thought I would crazy because they flirted with me? Ok, there is someone who when they flirt with me makes my heart flutter, but he is busy. His life is full and long hours and hard work. And for the most part I understand that, but sometimes I still could use a little attention. Can't we all.
Of course I understand that part of this is meds, and part of it is still feeling a little lost as I figure out my new life.
So what about this computer dating thing? I don't know. So far it really doesn't seem to fit me, but maybe I will learn a little bit about dating the world. Maybe not, I have never been very smart about dating or relationships. Well, it has been interesting. It did not build my confidence. It did not make me feel better about myself.
Well, sometimes life has happy days, and other days are not. But that is OK. I tried to make a difference in my mood, and it was a different day.