I need to eat

The last time I ate was Sunday.  Chinese takeout.  It was wonderful, but that was mid afternoon.  I had to start the cleansing process at 5:30 so no eating after that.  Then I continued the cleansing process yesterday morning before I went into the colonosocopy and endoscopy, which were no big deal.  After all not are you out, but the doctor includes a little amnesia blend in there so you truly don't remember anything.  My memory is before and after with Mary and the doctor and the sweet, kind, wonderful staff.  Mary brought me home.  I could have gone to her house, but I knew I just wanted to sleep and didn't want to worry about my animals.  Mary was sweet and made sure that I was settled in and eating a cookie and she went home to Mr. Moon and Jessie.  The cookie did not stay down, and the couple of things I tried after that also did not stay down.  I feel asleep and thought, I can eat a light breakfast tomorrow.  Well, I had to eat before 8, no eating after 8 am for the PTscan today.  I woke up after 8.  Darn.  I am hungry, not stomach rumbling hungry, but sugar level hungry.  And I have to be careful how much water I drink, because if I drink that too fast, well, it doesn't stay down either.  Sigh.  This is the problem with tests, they give us good information, but there are unintended consequences.  I will eat this evening when Judy gets me home from the PTScan, and I will be more careful.  I will eat something light and bland and eat slowly and remind my stomach how nice it is to eat.  The tomorrow I will go to work.  Today is Tamara's birthday and the staff agreed to wait to celebrate her birthday until tomorrow.  A pizza party.  Hmmmm, I don't think I will eat much of that.  But that is what she picked.  Then Friday we will meet with the doctor to hear the results of the tests and his suggestions on where we go from here.


The colonoscopy and endoscopy came out clear.  Oh thank goodness for that.  It will be interesting to see what they find on the PTScan from today.  


The only little hiccup yesterday, well besides the eating thing, was that the gallon of liquid you have to drink?  Polyethylene glycol.  And it pulls all the hydration out of your body so I was pretty dehydrated despite the fact that I had drank all that fluid.  So it took 4 sticks and 2 nurses before they could get the IV in.  And one, although it would not take anything from the IV, it bled like nobody's business.  They had to change all of the blankets, but they were so clever I didn't mind, especially they use warm blankets.  There is nothing like a warmed blanket being wrapped around you by sweet and caring people.


Larry has left with his brother Sandy to stay in Tennessee.  We had a nice visit.  Really, we had a nice visit.  I sat and listened to him as we cried and talked about what was happening to him.  I murmured softly and gave him him support.  I know how hard it is to wrap your brain around what it happening to you.  Each cancer is different and each experience is unique.  He is struggling with why and how and lots of denial.   He will have to come to his own terms with this.  I am happy to listen but he will have to deal with this in his own way.  I told him how I do it, but acceptance and the love and support of those around me.  He will be closer to family there, both of his brothers, and lots of Watson cousins, so if he is open to it, he can depend on the support of his family.  I truly wish him well.  I am glad to be able to say that.  I am sorry that it took something like this for him to start being a little bit more like the man I first met.


The elections are over.  The best thing for me is that I will not have to listen to the hateful, mean and lying commercials on TV>


So now to get ready for the test of the day.  Then I can eat!!!  Oh yeah!